Still alive.

Is there anyway that title could be anymore cliche, guy who once was enthusiastic about his blog (for a week or so) decides to update it, of course he names it "still alive". But there is no-one reading this anyway so I guess I could name it "Poop" and no-one would care.

Anyhoo, let's bring this shit up to date. After my last blog writing lots of stuff has changed in my life, moved to another city, got a job, met a girl in there, got tired of that work, changed to another, got fired, went back to previous job, after couple of months left the job, found another one which was fucked up scam company, quit that, got another job, got tired of that and the girl too, found a new job and a girl. All that in one year.

After that, went to work, moved in with previously mentioned girl, got a dog together, girl left me, met yet another girl, bought apartment, got a call from the ex-girlfriend who I lived with that she was pregnant, was shocked (obviously), went to Thailand for two weeks (highly recommended if you are single and in need of vacation, 2 weeks of booze, girls and sun), came back to cold and miserable Finland that I call home. After coming back I was sure that I really want to give my everything for getting back together with my pregnant ex, so I left the girl I was having some sort of dating etc. going on, started to see my ex more often, heck we both still had feelings for each other so it warmed up. But, the thing is that when she got pregnant, there was one other choice who could be the father. And he happened to be a guy that I knew, and when she was thinking shit up when thing between us were going down, basically before we broke up she was staying with her friends place for couple of weeks, and the other option for the kids daddy was living there also. So, I guess no surprise there that they had sex after she left me with a broken heart.

Now when we had our thing warming up again I just got over that scenario and in my mind forgave her, even thou she and that guy are living in buildings next to each other and I'm living +10km away. Well, now things are fucked up YET again, me and my ex see each other every now and then, we stay over nights, share the bed and so on. She was here last night actually, and of course I let her use my pc and today when she left she forgot to log out from skype and messenger. And what do I accidentally find? In skype she had chat open with a japanese exchange student who's gone back to japan I guess, in short there was they both had feelings towards each other, they both miss each other, they both think of each other and of course some sexual stuff also. Jackpot for me getting my head all fuzzy and feeling of my heart getting ripped out of my chest and put in to a blender. Now, I haven't told her that I know about that and I don't know even if I'm going to tell her or not.

And this all happened under a year. And in 2 months I'm going to be father. Busy life huh? Oh, and I left my job 2 weeks ago and starting new one soon.